a beautiful day

I woke up late today, there was a message from him from last night that said :  good night :-D
 I put on my cloths and went to start my car and it was then when I noticed I had a large stupid smile on my face
I wiped it off and drove to my work place
I bought a horrible coffee from the machine and didn't enjoy any sip of it
I was in the elevator when I realized I was still thinking of his message, and I wondered if he was already here before me, he usually wakes up early and doesn't have to rush, unlike me that is
even when I promise him to come earlier ten minutes so that we can have ten more minutes to ourselves, I usually end up being twenty minutes late and apologizing, but he never gets upset at me anyway
the thought of him never getting upset at me gave me that stupid smile again and I wiped it off as my elevator reached my floor
yes he was there, reading his notes because he is such a hard worker, he is the kind that gets upset if the doctor would ask us a question and he wouldn't know the answer, he is such a geek! and yet that's what makes him even more adorable
it was only when he asked me why are you smiling that I realized I was still smiling that stupid cheesy smile, I really should stop doing that! nothing, I said, I was just wondering how much more of a nerd can you become before they finally burn you at a stake. I sat beside him and he made sure to make enough space between us that would fit a hippopotamus, but still its his shyness and awkwardness that mainly attracted my attention.
did you study yesterday? he asked. Eeeeh I know that I said I would but really yesterday was CRAZY!
but that's what you said the day before yesterday and the day before!
I know I know I 'll eventually start don't push!
wonder when will "eventually" come!
you know you sound like my dad! only you don't give me money to have to listen to you!
I don't have money otherwise I would have given you
then give me your watch!
okay!
I don't even like your watch ( as I held it fondly between my fingers)
then why do you keep asking for it?
because it's yours...
there was silence after my last sentence, realizing how easily a conversation could go a wrong turn I said : so do you know which doctor we have today?
no I don't, but I have a bad feeling that this is not going to be a good day
don't think like that! think that today is going to be beautiful and we are going to have so much fun!.
some Malaysian students started arriving already so I got up since we no longer had any privacy
I have to go now, don't want to get yelled at today because today is going to  BEAUTIFUL keep that in your mind!
It already is at least for me...I didn't say that out loud of course! some feelings are better left unsaid
My day wasn't beautiful at all! I got yelled at by a nurse! (not that I have anything against nurses) I didn't know the answers to any question the doctor asked me (god I wish I had listened to him and studied yesterday) and I was in no mood to present my case today and yet somehow that doctor knew that exactly and seeing how caring he is made me present it and made sure to point out all my "fatal" mistakes. and my group seemed to find the whole situation too funny to try and back me up in front of the doctor! Usually all of this doesn't get me down, however the fact that  I was barely able to see him for five minutes during the break and he didn't seem to mind spending only five minutes with me cracked me up! I really miss him but longing was definitely not in his eyes when he told me I have to go to see some stupid doctor.

I sat frustrated in front of the lecture hall playing with my cell phone, there was still 50 minutes left before the lecture starts but I was in no mood to socialize or to talk to anyone, so I sat there humming a song and quite loudly if I might add, not that I sounded good or anything, but I was pretty sure not even the nerds are going to show up 50 minutes before the lecture to the lecture hall.

I was running out of songs and there was still 35 minutes left for the lecture, I started walking in zigzag lines until I almost fell, that was when I decided that I'll be probably safer if I was sitting. I found the perfect spot where I could see everyone who is coming but no one can see me directly. I sat there and started listening to my ipod, and then a tall figure came through the door at the end of the other side of the hall, my heart contracted a little stronger than it should have, it was him.
what is he doing here? probably came with his friends to talk with the doctor before everyone else came, but he was alone and no one followed him. well then he must've came to use the bathroom at the end of the corridor, but he wasn't going anywhere, he was just walking around and looking for something...for someone

And then his eyes caught mine, and again my heart gave another painful contraction, can you stop it already! how am I supposed to keep my cool with you pounding in my chest so hard I think he actually heard it!
 What are you doing here?
I came looking for you...you weren't picking up your phone
what? it was true... there were 3 missed calls but somehow I didn't hear it ring nor feel it vibrate
am sorry I didn't hear it I was listening to my ipod, besides what are you doing here I thought you were going to ask the doctors about the exam that's 7 months away!
well I did and I finished early so I came looking for you but couldn't find you anywhere and I thought I would find you here
are you stalking me now?
am not stalking you I just thought you looked angry earlier and wanted to come and check on you
oh... it's sweet that he wants to check on me but I want him to want to see not just come and check on me!
am okay you shouldn't have came, your friends are going to be wondering where you are at
my friends can wait, tell me what's wrong
it's a long story, it's going to take time
I have nothing to do...unless you have something to do
No I don't
then why are we still arguing?
he does have a point you know ...hmmmm
and so we sat and I told him all about my horrible day only it didn't sound so horrible at all now! in fact I absolutely loved today! everything that happened to me today was so funny when I was with him. something about his smile made me realize how beautiful life is, I was so happy, and again... I had that stupid smile on my face.
students were coming to the lecture hall now and I could feel them looking at us, I could see some poke their friends and point towards us, I could imagine them making these stories about us , and I  could feel the looks they were giving us, but I honestly didn't care, how could I with his eyes gazing fondly at me?

as the lecture began we sat in the front row, we couldn't talk or even write notes to each other but I didn't care, I was sitting by his side and I could smell his cologne, which made it harder for me to concentrate during the lecture.
the day was over and I was finally going back to my dormitory, he walked me to my car even though it was further away from his car, I tried pointing it out to him but he hushed me and we walked silently, why did I have to park the car this close to the lecture hall??
well, am not going to call you today so that you would study more today, and I promise am going to start studying today too
don't mind me, you call me when you get a break, and yes start studying today
okay I will, well good bye
good bye
I got in to my car but pretended to be tuning the radio so that I could get a last look at him as he walked to his car, but he didn't turn to get a last look , oh well don't be greedy! you had a good, no a great day!
but then my phone was ringing, and it was him! I thought that he was going to probably tell me that I forgot to do something
surely you didn't miss me already?
haha, I wanted to tell you that you were right, today was beautiful..thank you
oh ...eeeh mmm, that should teach you to listen to me more often
ya I probably should, drive safely...bye
bye