I had a dream

I had a dream
I dreamed that we were together far away
no one was there to give us looks, to whisper about us, or to make judgements
it was early morning, the sun was rising slowly in the sky
there was this slight breeze that tickled my skin
it was so quiet except for some birds that were peaking at us
it was like the world was created for me and you

we were sitting in a green meadow where you could see nothing but the horizon far away
everything seemed possible 
the sun was at angle to us now
it made your hair look lighter
and your eyes look... I couldnt look you in the eye deep enough to make out what the sun made them look like
you however, you could stare in to my eyes for eternity
I couldn't look back at you but I knew what your eyes were saying

they were speaking soft words of love that you couldn't express
they had a lot of desire that you couldn't follow
and the longing in them... I couldn't understand what you were longing for exactly, but at least I knew that there was a lot of longing

we sat there talking for hours,  we had nothing to go back to, because everything we ever wanted we had at that moment
we were together and yet, I missed you so much
and then I had that terrible feeling in my stomach
even though everything seemed so real, something was missing
"what's the matter" you asked me
:something is not right" I said
"here you are with me, you love me, we are alone, and I couldnt be happier, but something is not right"
"isnt this everything you ever wanted?" he asked
"No" I said
"this is not reality, and no matter how long this goes on for, we have to go back eventually , and I don't want to find the reality so cruel and unbearable
I want you to be real, I want you to really love me, I want you to want to be with me, and I will make it happen
you will love me, we will sit in green meadow and spend hours planning a future for us, together

our lives will be happier than our dreams, and we will never want to sleep again, because reality will be so much sweeter
and untill that day comes, wait for me here
I'll visit you every night until you are with me day and night... I promise"
with a smile you say "I'll be here..waiting"

yo finally let go of my hand and I feel a shiver run down my spine
I feel like my whole word is shaking and a louse noise comes from behind

I wake up and its only phone ringing and vibrating
It is you, only its not really you
you voice is casual and emotionless
you talk in a hurry because you need to go and cant spare few moments to talk to  me
"I miss you"
"what? I cant here you, there are a lot of people here and I can barely hear you. I'll talk to you later"
" I'll be here..waiting"